is it wrong if i got a tattoo on my butt that says "michael jackson was here"?
woke up the mornin, took care of some forums and business. comp's been kinda slow, need to defrag/improve/clean clutter.
went out to pande fer some gamin/tradin. came into some close calls in the tourney but at least made some gains. ridiculous last couple of rounds though.
came back to base, late dinner. set up skype fer parents, and talk with friends some. wantin to live like i could have 2 weeks ago, but it's arigh. empty house kinda bums me out.
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my mood has been generally improving, even when no cash flow or ppl go. it's bein able to flow freely that's givin me a boost. hopfly things pick up and i'll be able to travel some, without worryin that things'll collapse around me.
not rubbin it in to no one, it's that...stress is really nothin, unless you're actually like physically hampered.
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we can't help anyone who doesn't want to help themselves. get out your box, and into my circle :)
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Friday, September 11, 2009
scrambled eggs, oj, corn muffin
random thought: the word "penis" should be pronounced pen-is. where does the long e come from?
woke up this mornin from bad headache. went off to brighton to pick up some movin boxes, and found out the bad news that the ones i wanted can't fit in the car. drove around left and right to find places that had the boxes, but each is like 12 bucks. pulled the box i could bring back from the car, and found it had a nice lil dedication on it: "don't be a b*tch, this is my stuff, leave it alone". hopfly the eBayer won't neg ref me fer that =/
checkin messages, need to get business done. the house will be filled soon, and still tryin to remedy all debts and financials. mac and cheese, comfort me.
went down to copley and took care of some business before comin back to base. drive to watertown to pick up somin, and spot what appeared to be a "tupac supports obama and biden". then i found out i can't read.
now watchin some telly, and wantin to break out later tnight. instead, will settle for gettin nothin done :)
woke up this mornin from bad headache. went off to brighton to pick up some movin boxes, and found out the bad news that the ones i wanted can't fit in the car. drove around left and right to find places that had the boxes, but each is like 12 bucks. pulled the box i could bring back from the car, and found it had a nice lil dedication on it: "don't be a b*tch, this is my stuff, leave it alone". hopfly the eBayer won't neg ref me fer that =/
checkin messages, need to get business done. the house will be filled soon, and still tryin to remedy all debts and financials. mac and cheese, comfort me.
went down to copley and took care of some business before comin back to base. drive to watertown to pick up somin, and spot what appeared to be a "tupac supports obama and biden". then i found out i can't read.
now watchin some telly, and wantin to break out later tnight. instead, will settle for gettin nothin done :)
Thursday, August 27, 2009
blueberry muffin, orange juice
sigh, i find right now the overabundant reasoning fer me to wake up is to seek money. feelin hollowed out, when i imagine the weight of the world really out there.
woke up and did some cleanin. took care some bills and other mailings, spent all day on the forums, knowin that i shouldn't have. exercised fer a bit, need to gather some more items. not sure what planned tmr, but feel like runnin, somwhere, fer some reason. the gut kinda makes me do it.
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not sure what i'm lookin fer right now. dreams are still here with me, but they won't get done if it's only the "1 man, 1 drive" mentality. how can i be the cog in the gearwork that works the machine in society?
guess i'm a lil cranked out that originality flew out the window in many aspects of life. tnight, edward kennedy died. they said, he was a fighter. ok, and now what? timeline's a long element, and ppl mourn, and then move on. a speck of dust on a infinite inch flat screen tv.
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life's cruel joke-grow to get to the skies as we get older, in which we start shrinking to and into the ground.
woke up and did some cleanin. took care some bills and other mailings, spent all day on the forums, knowin that i shouldn't have. exercised fer a bit, need to gather some more items. not sure what planned tmr, but feel like runnin, somwhere, fer some reason. the gut kinda makes me do it.
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not sure what i'm lookin fer right now. dreams are still here with me, but they won't get done if it's only the "1 man, 1 drive" mentality. how can i be the cog in the gearwork that works the machine in society?
guess i'm a lil cranked out that originality flew out the window in many aspects of life. tnight, edward kennedy died. they said, he was a fighter. ok, and now what? timeline's a long element, and ppl mourn, and then move on. a speck of dust on a infinite inch flat screen tv.
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life's cruel joke-grow to get to the skies as we get older, in which we start shrinking to and into the ground.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
congee, bagel sandwich
yes, i admit it, tryin to save the world. but...is it really worth saving? at that critical point in time, if i have my finger on the button or command of the troops, will i want to?
woke up early fer some prefridged breakfast. spent some time on forums, then headed to service late. sat down, and thought i saw a picture of hitler in our bulletin. trust me, i have it and you woulda done a double take too.
grabbed some lunch in chi-town and hung with ivan fer the rest of the day. all i can say is revere is not a pleasant place. on the way back to the train station, ppl got kicked out for "falling into the pit". apparently a train stopped so yeah, good call fer them
back to base, ate up, tried to figure out more business. tryin to reconnect with some ppl, but the heat's gettin to my brain. makes us do silly things, like look like a pompous jackass by accident.
need to wake early to get on the grind. summer's almost over, and once again, i've "survived" without a job. i swear, i'm caught in the middle of the system.
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kinda disheartened at how people can "settle" for the situations and life given. far be it for any of us to become under-ambitious, because america's about industry and quality, while...
...also being one of the lazier and fatter places in the developed world. but i guess at the same time, we don't want to develop a napoleon complex, thinkin, the world's oh so big, and we need more of it, more of what it gives, because "frankly, we deserve more"
i dunno how to say it, but ambition needs to be kept in check. the only way that'll happen is a clear perspective, or someone who can temper you at the right time. fer me, it's gettin clearer, but still no one out there to cushion the fall when needed.
don't let it come to the point where you don't appreciate what you have till it's gone. ppl die, goods fade, but connections-they're the tops.
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hopeless dragon, where dragon = my life? sign us up please, for i feel i'm finally faded.
woke up early fer some prefridged breakfast. spent some time on forums, then headed to service late. sat down, and thought i saw a picture of hitler in our bulletin. trust me, i have it and you woulda done a double take too.
grabbed some lunch in chi-town and hung with ivan fer the rest of the day. all i can say is revere is not a pleasant place. on the way back to the train station, ppl got kicked out for "falling into the pit". apparently a train stopped so yeah, good call fer them
back to base, ate up, tried to figure out more business. tryin to reconnect with some ppl, but the heat's gettin to my brain. makes us do silly things, like look like a pompous jackass by accident.
need to wake early to get on the grind. summer's almost over, and once again, i've "survived" without a job. i swear, i'm caught in the middle of the system.
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kinda disheartened at how people can "settle" for the situations and life given. far be it for any of us to become under-ambitious, because america's about industry and quality, while...
...also being one of the lazier and fatter places in the developed world. but i guess at the same time, we don't want to develop a napoleon complex, thinkin, the world's oh so big, and we need more of it, more of what it gives, because "frankly, we deserve more"
i dunno how to say it, but ambition needs to be kept in check. the only way that'll happen is a clear perspective, or someone who can temper you at the right time. fer me, it's gettin clearer, but still no one out there to cushion the fall when needed.
don't let it come to the point where you don't appreciate what you have till it's gone. ppl die, goods fade, but connections-they're the tops.
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hopeless dragon, where dragon = my life? sign us up please, for i feel i'm finally faded.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
fried rice crossover, raspberry grape juice
haven't blogged fer bout a month. kinda noted the deficiency in my minds..
woke up this morn, shoulders still hurtin. cleaned up some stuff and realized that i lost my saved session fer firefox. back to job huntin the ol fashioned way.
met up with a friend at davis, had lunch and walked round fer a bit. went to prudential to check what was goin down, then back to base before goin to crossroads.
was there till end of the night, chillin at base now.
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the prolems that plagued the fellowship 10 years ago-they still hit even now as we're old and grown. various accounts from ppl i can trust is that there really is no end to this.
we gotta find ways to reach out with one another and not so much in the "hi, how you doing?" standard-esque way. it sucks though that in a sea of people, i too wanna look fer a smaller group of ppl to communicate with. but i guess the number is also irrelevant-1 or 1 million works fer me.
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she's the prettiest girl in the room, i swear. and she doesn't even know it. gotta remind her, but in what way?
woke up this morn, shoulders still hurtin. cleaned up some stuff and realized that i lost my saved session fer firefox. back to job huntin the ol fashioned way.
met up with a friend at davis, had lunch and walked round fer a bit. went to prudential to check what was goin down, then back to base before goin to crossroads.
was there till end of the night, chillin at base now.
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the prolems that plagued the fellowship 10 years ago-they still hit even now as we're old and grown. various accounts from ppl i can trust is that there really is no end to this.
we gotta find ways to reach out with one another and not so much in the "hi, how you doing?" standard-esque way. it sucks though that in a sea of people, i too wanna look fer a smaller group of ppl to communicate with. but i guess the number is also irrelevant-1 or 1 million works fer me.
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she's the prettiest girl in the room, i swear. and she doesn't even know it. gotta remind her, but in what way?
Thursday, July 16, 2009
quic pic bbq, pineapple smoothie
life got messy when money was invented.
woke up this mornin, headed to framingham for my interview. came back to base, ate lunch while entertainin some peeps. prudential after to lounge around, got some play. to north quincy fer dinner with the fam. back to base once more to unpack, unwind and catch up. another night of sleepin late, hopfly not.
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improvement at the cost of your dreams? don't like that tradeoff.
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when this year is over, what direction will our ppl go? will be in retry mode for a week.
woke up this mornin, headed to framingham for my interview. came back to base, ate lunch while entertainin some peeps. prudential after to lounge around, got some play. to north quincy fer dinner with the fam. back to base once more to unpack, unwind and catch up. another night of sleepin late, hopfly not.
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improvement at the cost of your dreams? don't like that tradeoff.
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when this year is over, what direction will our ppl go? will be in retry mode for a week.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
strawberry milkshake whoppers
what do you care about more? the achieving, or the achievement?
woke up to get prepped fer the drivin test. cut my hand while reachin for my keys. checked out some fb before i left. was waitin around at the ymca fer a bit, played some old school music via blackberry.
did my driving test, almost failed it, but was saved by "my character" and for the fact the instructor mercifully passed me. stuck around the rmv to get things done, then back to base for meal.
headed to pru to gather some more materials. then off to pande, and gettin annoyed. came back to base, fail at games, and hunger. now...to become a semi-adult.
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simply put, don't let money get in the way of friendship. ppl live and die by the numbers for the numbers. spill their red for the green.
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fake reality, versus real fakeness....
woke up to get prepped fer the drivin test. cut my hand while reachin for my keys. checked out some fb before i left. was waitin around at the ymca fer a bit, played some old school music via blackberry.
did my driving test, almost failed it, but was saved by "my character" and for the fact the instructor mercifully passed me. stuck around the rmv to get things done, then back to base for meal.
headed to pru to gather some more materials. then off to pande, and gettin annoyed. came back to base, fail at games, and hunger. now...to become a semi-adult.
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simply put, don't let money get in the way of friendship. ppl live and die by the numbers for the numbers. spill their red for the green.
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fake reality, versus real fakeness....
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