cheese danish, orange juice

didn't know easter had a taste.

woke up an headed to work. the block was kinda slow, and outside was pretty cold. spotted some dogwalkers-two in particular stood out. a nice tibetan terrier, and this really fat lady with a tiny dog. got stuck on the second block since the mailboxes and names were all screwy.

came back to base to organize some stuff, and get the gb deck runnin. some lunch, then headed out with parents to pick up supplies in quincy apparently.

first stop was south shore plaza. most of the places fell into niche categories and most the old stores are gone. there's now a Lego store-they've gone a long way from simply bein bricks. other oddities such as Hot Topic, lingerie stores at every turn, and "stylish" maternitywear came out. checked out some furniture at bernie and phyl's, then off to walmart in search of shorts and a duffle bag.

that place was a lol-fest. every shorts model is supposed to be this 6 pack, thin, and built person. XL shorts show a guy with lovehandles. some dr. thunder soda, but not that thirsty. also checked out the feminine care section. tons of douches and condoms. also a massive bottle that looks like grape drink, except it's multi-purpose cleaner.

back to base, need to clean, correct, collect, and consume.

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on the drive back through our old neighborhood, lookin around and seein how much things have changed. small businesses, out of businesses, clothing stores, food chic, etc etc. and i wonder why there goes so much change.

it's cause we get bored. we need diffrent tastes. we're never fully satisfied. content, but not solidly settled, nor sold. that's why we get restless, why we leave our jobs, our spouses, our homes.

now, i dunno what interests accomodate you. i dunno how your life goes, but i know that we're all yearnin fer somethin to fill in us that, well, not a void, but to exterminate that continuous wanting of something more. what makes us completed?

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people are worth much more than money, although many a time we do put a price on them. insurance companies do it, we do it, politicians do it. know that money is a means to an end, not the end itself.

spanish dip, pita chips, french au jus, vbean frappuccino, perrier, hot fudge sundae

maybe that's my weakness-not aggressive enough when i need to make a final push.

woke up to get to work. had brunch at houston's near government center, with a nice talk about livin life. searched downtown fer some supplies, but none suitable. came back to base to get another jacket. headed to prudential fer a couple of games, and then off to pandemonium fer some fun. doing things isn't as important as figuring out how. back to base again fer dinner and checkin out how to absolve some issues involving life.

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if you never see it, then you can't get hurt? what a buncha bullsh..

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from my uncle: people don't plan to fail; they fail to plan.

white chicken, pasta, orange juice

I want some japanese food, right now. it's my favorite.

woke up early to get my hours in, also before the rain started too. the block itself was kinda lame, but most of the numbers were posted up. one place i had to wait a couple hours for clearance, because the management company needed my supervisor's ok.
another nice car on my routes,

after the weather started to go south, ate lunch and headed to prudential to get my game on. ended up gettin the short end of the stick after a bad trade, but got my needed materials. my Nth protege is doing well.

went to TWIGS, felt kinda bad, due to the seating arrangement. was out of it the whoel time, since i didn't eat yet. some good points made about validating the existence of God. some Bang! afterwards when i got thrashed. headed back the long way to base, and got to get some bake sale food at ABP.

back at base, checkin some emails, msgs. might be gettin sued by half.com soon, and might have to request a new computer fer work.

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couples eventually look the same. we saw it. oh boy, looks like i'm doomed...

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you can't hide it, and you can't schedule it. it's apparent, and there.

lasagna, cherry slurpee

hmm...perhaps i may have to start workin at night. no other way to fill in those hours.

woke up at 10:30, but struggled to wake. tried again at 1, and succeeded. made breakfast the easy way via microwave. checked out some wiki articles, and drafted a new deck idea. gonna use some real crap that no one uses, which is why it'll work. waited fer ivan to show up at my place. funny how he got pissed at me fer waiting at the wrong door the whole time...

after a couple games, headed out to church fer some wiffleball. was stinkin all day, but gettin my batting eye better. stuck around fer a lil bit to let some neighborhood kids participate. headed out to downtown to get a T pass and in hopes of findin a dufflebag. found out Champs was closed about 5 blocks from it. took the longer route back to base.

decktested a lil bit, chatted with some folk. figurin out my work schedule-the rain's gonna kill it, but i gotsta go, like the mailman.

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tday, i was reminded again that the life i have isn't mine. much joy derived from teaching ppl something, whether important or inane. tricky or sadistic. noble or destructive. in some way, we're all trained to be teachers, but i really don't wanna be one in the future.

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the truth will eventually hurt. are you man enough to face it, or do you duck it to avoid the lil pain?

a screwed up omelette on my part, powerade

what's good being #2 of 97, if you can't even beat an outlier more than once? =P

finally had more than 8 hours of sleep las night. weird dreams, but can't recall them now. woke up round 12, afternoon routined it. made some breakfast, which went south before, during, and after it was made. headed out to get some work done. as soon as i left the house, found out that i fergot my wallet and keys...

anyways, headed out to the block i was to cover. first place i ran into was a church,which i later found out i came in thru the side. continued round the block, started to rain a bit, but was doin ok. brought my iPod to prevent boredom, prolly not a good idea to sing Notorious B.I.G. in front of a 4 year old, no?

some ppl were really nice, other ppl were kinda defensive. one guy i agitated, because i called his house number, which was clearly on his doorbell. winds were screwin me and the gps signal, decided to put some gloves on. soon as i put both gloves on, got a phone call from ivan. finished the block in bout 4 hours, then headed back to base. dropped off the work materials, then rushed out with the house, tv dinner in hand.

ymg sucks...ppl don't trade fair, nor do they wanna challenge themselves at all. thinkin of makin a new deck soon, once the materials are found/proxied. pretty bored all the time there.

came back to base again, washed some dishes, makin dinner, plannin my next week.

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....i notice how chic the south end can be, but it feels so heartless. gated communities, urban renewal, and yuppies... face it, ppl aren't better when they have money; they either start good and fall, or they remain good when they have it.

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the question in my mind now isn't what i'm lookin for-it's who i'm lookin for. my mate, my compadres, my allies, my guidance, myself, my Lord.

honey bunches of oats

seeking comfort often leads us to the wrong decisions.

woke up, kinda drained from last nigh. job trainin's still goin on, the hardware wasn't registerin yet. a lot of messin around and boredom-got reamed fer sleepin again. went to get lunch at the somalian place again, but their electricity went out.

lunch was a weird talk about elitism and the mentally challenged, kinda made me sad. did fingerprinting and finished up with most of the mapping. got driven back to base by supervisor, took a nap fer some hours, then helped to unpack groceries. watchin jurassic park 3 on tv now.

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how stimulated are you really? what's your high? is it the right one?

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counting down...even if it's short.

honey bunches of oats, cherry 7 up

it's a challenge to be challenged. but, we need to be challenged in order to face challenges.

stayed up all night surfin the net and playin monopoly. bedded round 6:30, then woke up an hr later to do work hw. work was pretty lame, fallin asleep all the time. got bored and texted a friend some. found out later that i forgot to submit my personnel file.

came back to base, went to prudential in hopes of pickin up my stuff, no dice. got bored again, came back to base. doin laundry, watcihin tv, gotta do some groomin, and catch up on meals with sleep.

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no offense to anyone who has down syndrome, autism, mental retardation, etc.. at work, when ppl gotta compete against another, it's like fightin in a tournament in the consolation bracket, and even the winner is a "loser". i know it sounds really mean, and i don't mean it like that.. but it's the task of all to triumph over all. my words are sloppy tnight.

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i want to taste some sweet fruit. my mind misses it.